Raw

Raw - I guess this is the best word to describe the way I feel these days - Raw.    Life has taken a very ugly and nasty turn for me this week and some startling realizations have come to light and because of that I am Raw.  I have no energy for anything, I feel sick all the time, all I want to do is run away somewhere and hide until life decides to go away and find somebody else to pick on.  It is my own fault really but it still doesn't make it any easier to take....Mary Poppins says "a spoonful of sugar helps the medicine go down" but what about with life - what makes life's ugly realities easier.  How do you swallow them down without hurt, or damage?  Why bother?  Is it even worth it?  Do you even want to try again?  These are the things that I have asked myself over and over again this week and honestly the answer to all are YES I DO.....I hope that the Rawness will go away and my world will right itself and spin on its axis again normally soon - if it doesn't well, we all know me - I am the girl that goes with the flow and always rolls with the punches....I don't rock the apple cart unless I just have to.....hopefully life will get better.....my friend posted on facebook yesterday that she was trying to recover from running the marathon that we called life and you know that kinda sums it up.....oh well....at this point in time all I can say is I feel utterly and truely Raw.